Schroedinger's Kat

Fri, 10 Jan 2003 21:48:29 GMT

Ohh, how did I ever get through life this far without playing the carrot game?

Man, I love Engrish.

Fri, 10 Jan 2003 21:30:42 GMT

Man, I swear... on the days I go out with the specific purpose of finding people to hang out with, I can never seem to run into anybody. But on those rare times when I actually have something to do and/or time constraints, I manage to find plenty of people. I went to Livingstone's on my lunch break and saw gynocide and selfamused just as I was leaving to head back to work, then I saw Malcolm and Brian as I was driving up Maroa and stopped just long enough to say hello. Gosh darn my luck sometimes.

And because I've been thinking about it lately... here's a ~~phat~~ fat poll!

View Poll: pudgy wudgy

Fri, 10 Jan 2003 18:01:48 GMT

Someone just paged on the overhead system: "Everyone please check out Terri's legs today."

Terri is the head honcho (honchess?) in the building, more or less, and I guess she's actually wearing a skirt today. Still, it's a weird thing to hear first thing in the morning.

Fri, 10 Jan 2003 16:49:51 GMT

I was thinking about getting a tattoo of this right on my belly:

I probably won't, though. Can't imagine still wanting it when I'm 60...

It's raining today. Makes me wish I hadn't left my umbrella in Portland. I wonder whatever happened to that thing.

Does anyone else think there's something horribly wrong with a pop-up window that advertising a pop-up eliminator?

Like a sentence of death,
I got no options left,
I've got nothing to show now.

I'm down on the ground,
I've got seconds to live,
and you can't go now.

'Cause love, like an invisible bullet shot me down
and I'm bleeding, yeah I'm bleeding
and if you go, furious angels will bring you back to me.
They will bring you back to me.

You're a dirty needle,
you're in my blood and there's no cure in me.
I wanna run, like the blood from a wound
to a place you can't see me.
'Cause love, like a blow to the head has left me stunned
and I'm reeling, yeah I'm reeling
and if you go, furious angels will bring you back to me.

You're a cold piece of steel between my ribs
and there's no saving me.
And I can't get up,
from this wet crimson bed that you made for me.
'Cause love like a knife in the back has cut me down
and I'm bleeding, yeah I'm bleeding,
and if you go, angels will run to defend me, to defend me.

-Rob D, "Furious Angels"

I think we might go check out The Dance tonight (what is currently the place that used to be The Express, wow that's some awful grammar I just used). It's been too long since I've gone dancing. And I know I look like a fool doing it: fat white girl in the hizzouse. But it makes me happy in a way that few things do.

Oh, and I *finally* saw Reservoir Dogs last night. Hard to watch, but a pretty good film nonetheless. Then again, I'm predisposed to liking movies that end like that. And I think Steve Buscemi is a demi-god. I was talking to someone about how it would be the scariest thing in the world to make an army of pissed off Steve Buscemi clones. Anyhow. Why the hell was it called Reservoir Dogs anyway?

Anyone doing anything cool this weekend?

Thu, 09 Jan 2003 21:59:10 GMT

Now I remember: I was going to post about the dream I had last night. It's really rare for me to remember my dreams these days, and even when I do it's usually just one moment or scene that sticks with me.

I was in this health food store, but it was also a new-age/magic sort of store. They had lots of dried fruits and candies that were free to sample. I guess this was "the place to hang out", at least in my dreamworld, so I'd been there for a while, sampling everything. Mischa came into the store and she was blind, which for some reason didn't shock me very much. She said that she'd just come in to pick up a box of lemon-flavored coconut slices (I can't help but wonder what that would taste like). Lots of other familiar people would stop by all day long, and I would help them find what they wanted (never mind the fact that I'm certain I didn't work there).

Anyway. Erm. Thanks for the jokes yesterday, everyone. My co-workers were wondering why I was giggling.

And happy doubledouble wishy wishes to aryx and sogi.

Wed, 08 Jan 2003 19:19:54 GMT

Tell me a joke.

Wed, 08 Jan 2003 18:04:45 GMT

I sure feel braindead this morning. Buffy was disappointing last night. I discovered the joy that is Domino's Dots. Now I just feel fat. I'm wearing lipstick today. I get to go motherboard shopping for my parent's puter tonight. In the quiet moments, I still feel the resonant vibrations of psychic violence from the past. And I can't stop dwelling on Justin's death, even though I hadn't really thought about him in years. I guess that's the effect of never having someone who was actually close to me pass away. If I have any connection at all with the deceased, it stays with me. I'm too sensitive for my own good.

Like in 7th grade at Computech... there was this girl named Andrea who always used to pick on me. She dressed like a grunge rocker (this was, after all, 1994) and she had a high school boyfriend. Then, one Friday night, she shot herself. My best friend came to me the following Monday, right after we found out what had happened, and told me that Andrea had gone to her during the day on Friday and told her to give me her apologies for being such a bitch. Then again, I suppose my friend might have made this up just to be sappy. Still, I held onto her obituary for years.

And then in high school, when Julie was killed in a car accident, I went to the memorial service they held in the Little Theater at Roosevelt and bawled like a baby, even though I'd never actually had a conversation with the girl.

And there was Robert's little brother who wasn't looking where he was going while playing soccer. And that Asian girl who hung herself, I think her name was Mei, the one with the limp. And, of course, all the gang-related crap that went down in and around the high school.

Half the time I start crying if any of you talk about someone dying, even if I've never even met you. Shit, man, the person doesn't even have to be real. I had trouble sleeping after the episode of Buffy where Tara was shot. It makes me wonder what's going to happen to me when someone close to me does die. Like my grandmother, who just turned 90. Or my kitty, who has leukemia and probably not much time left.

Shit, I gotta stop dwelling on these things so early in the morning.

Drugs are bad, mmkay?

Tue, 07 Jan 2003 22:11:09 GMT

From News of the Weird...

In November, Jason Morris, 30, was acquitted by a jury in Greater Manchester, England, of the charge that, using ordinary pliers, he pulled out 18 of his girlfriend's teeth, leaving her covered head to toe in blood. The case turned when the girlfriend, Samantha Court, 25, took the witness stand and admitted that she pulled the teeth out herself, during an April drug binge during which she tried to get rid of a green and pink fly that had darted down her throat. Court said the couple has decided to stop doing drugs. [The Guardian, 11-23-02]

Mon, 06 Jan 2003 23:38:07 GMT

Yet another accident just happened on Dakota outside my building. If you're bored and feel like reading about it (by no means mandatory, there will not be a quiz later):

Guy in a white pickup was driving west down Dakota. Between Fresno and Blackstone, there's a little side street called Diana. A woman in a white Saturn was driving south on Diana towards Dakota and turned right, apparently going fast enough to hit the back side of the white pickup, causing it to go into a spin and flipping onto its side. The guy wasn't hurt, and the girl sped away, although I guess the crash caused her license plate to fall off and get picked up by a cop, sealing her fate.

What was this girl's problem, anyway?

Happy birthday to elvenwolfcub, before I forget to spread the wishies.

Or maybe she's just crazy...

Mon, 06 Jan 2003 18:12:55 GMT

You ever see a sign or name every so often and it always gets a certain song stuck in your head?

Maybe that's unclear, here's an example:

There's a sign on a door at my work that says "Home Services Clinical Clerical" and it always gets Supertramp running through my head, as in... "When I was young, it seemed that life was so wonderful, a miracle, oh it was clinical clerical..."

Or, we once had a patient whose first name was Colita and every time I saw her name I started thinking of Hotel California.

Yeah, this really is the best shit I can come up with to talk about this morning. It's freakin' Monday. School starts in a week. Yeah.

Yay for Ambi having email at work and keeping me amused throughout the course of the day. :)

Fri, 03 Jan 2003 21:19:31 GMT

Ran across this page completely by accident... if anyone needs really bizarre names for short stories, check it out. It's a list of some of the strangest names chosen for babies of people that live in Utah.

The Cream of the Crop
The Clarks' Favorite Utah Names
Updated 27 October 2002

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The new parents couldn't be happier: Gladell & Delightra (sisters), Luvit, Delecta, Delite, Joyette, Joi, Joyia, Joyellen, Joycell, Hallah Lujah, Bliss, Joyanne

Cleanliness is next to Godliness: Zestpoole, Sparkle

The Ward Choir Director's Daughters: Aria, Audia, Aurel, Choral, LaVoice, Tonilee, Capella, Chime, Rocksan Violin

Jewels every one: Amulet, Pearlette, Pearlene, Emerald, JewlyAnn, Ahmre Jade, Treasure Tonya, Turquoise Nova, Sequin, Amethist.

Girls you just know have big, floofy hair: Blondeen, Rayette, Faundaree, Shazette, Shasheena, Honilynn, Najestica, Teasa, Shazzanna, Pluma, Bobbette, Blonda, Breezy, Wenderella, Aquanetta, Brinderella, Dazzlyn

Maybe they're in the Klingon Ward: Tchae, Xko, Corx, G'ni, Vvhs, Garn, Ka, Deauxti, Xymoya, Sha'Kira, Zy, Xela, Tscharna, Nivek, Zon'tl, Zagg, Xan, Judziah Datz (a female, named after a character in Star Trek), K'lar (ditto), Jarna Nazhalena, Chod, Xarek, Grik, Stod, T'Shara, Tral, Sherik, Curg

The Worth of a Soul: Cashley

Astronomical: LeVoid, Sunan, Moonyene, Starlene, Sunelly, Luna, Lunia, Solinda, Sunirae, Staryl, Marandastarr, Season, Aries, Starlyn, Cressent, Celestial Starr, Summerlyn, Astrolena

Could only be LDS: Cumorah Hill, Liahonna, Ensign, Nauvoo, Kirtland, Templa, Templer, Tempella, Tempalia, Ziona, Deseret (and Desereta), Tabernacle, Woodruff, Pratt, Tithing, Quorum, Helamans Warrior, Iron Rod, Morona, Manti, Stripling, Nephi Courage, Celestial Glory, Celestian, Brighaminie, Zion, Xione (pronounced "zion")

Parents were BYU math majors: Alpha Mae, Seven, Seavenly, Twenty, Prime, Omega Lee, Jennyfivetina, Tenna, Elevena, Ninea, Eighta

You can name a kid this, but you shouldn't ingest it: Cola, Vinyl, Orlon, Chlorine, Clorene, Florene, Florine, Lexann, Dow, Tide, Downy, Codiene, Daquari, DeCon, Starbuck, Crayon, Treasure Cocaine

Names inspired by the family car: Audi, Fairlene, Celecta, Pontiac, Vonda, Vonza, Auto, Cherokee, Lexus, Porsche, Skylark, Truckston, Avis, Chevrollette, Chevonne, Caprice, Dodge

Wishful thinking: Darlin', Courage, Winsome, Justan Tru, Pictorianna, Paradise Sunrise, Sage, Angelic, Breed, Godlove, Myrth, LaVirgin, DeFonda Virtue, Chastice, Normalene, Lovie Angel, Precious Blessing, Heavenly Melanie, Glee, Mormon Beauty, Pledger, Jentill, Devota, Coy, Fondd, Bridella, Verna Noall, Vervine, Viva, Golden Noble, MarVel, MemRee, Brunette, Merrily, Merry Ann, Celestial, Cherrish, Kash, Cashelle, Teton, Forever, Luvit, Mystiq, Worthy, Truly, Pleasant, Speedy, Hereditary, Shrudilee, Halo, Gentry, Truthanne, Finita, Mavryck, Amen, Merrijane, Marvelous Man.

Dad's hobby is obvious: Justa Cowgirl, Rode O, Hazer, Durango, Rifle, Laker, Jazz, Truck. Granite, Garnet, Gneiss (and other sisters with rock names beginning with “G.”)

Conversational: Whisper, Chat

Indications of possible birthplace: Arizonia, Floria, Montania, Utah, Utahna, Idahana, Idaho, Mauntana, Michigan, Nevadna, Okla, Vermont, Wyoming, Wyoma, Cache, Jordana, Payson, Vernal, Boise, Brookelynn, Lexington, Demoyn, Fredonia, Leremy, Platte, Salina, Seattle, Takoma, Tulsa, Tustin, Vail, Lundyn, Londyn, Irelynd, Irelan, Madrid, Manila, Cairo, Damascus, Tyre, Desert, Shahara, Trinidad, Houston, Cachelyn, D'Asia, Edon, Takoda, Orem, Shannon doah, Davenport Shore

No man (or woman) is an island - exceptions: Oahu, Irlanda, Tonga, SeaBreaze, Tiki Lou

Possible conception placenames: Hilton, Nafeteria, Bridges, Castle

Indications of possible birthdates: Juneth, Junola, LaJune, Julyn, Halloween, Novella, Summerisa, Winnter, Christmas Holiday, Merrienoel, Kris Miss, Tuesdee, Aprella

The day dawn is breaking: Dawnae, Dawnia, Dawnel, Dawnelle, Dawnene, Dawnalyn, Dawnette, Karadawn, RaDawn, Keturah Dawn, SheriDawn, LuDawn, Le Dawn, El Dawn, Dawnetta, Dawnese, Mistidawn, Berva Dawn, Celestial Dawn, Bodawn, Honey Dawn, Sunrise, Dawny, Yodawn, Dawnika, Dawnray, Denverly Dawn, Sunni Dawn, Dusty Dawn, Taradawn

Dad was a plumber: Valva, BeDae, Latrina, La Jonne, Digger

Dad worked for the postal service: Mailene

Dad's a lawyer: Justicia

Dad had a hernia: Truss

Less is more: La, Oa, NB, T, M, Q, JJ

I hope the computer will accept apostrophes in the name fields: D'Ann, D'Aun, D'Bora, D'Dee, D'Elise, D'Loaf, D'Shara, E'all, L'Deane, L'orL, Ja'mon, J'Costa, J'dean, J'Leen, J'net, J'Shara, J'Vonna, La'Donis, Me'shell, M'Jean, M'Kaaylie, M'Kenna, Mi'Lara, M'Lisa, M'Liss, M'Lu, M'Recia, O'lea, R'dell, R'lene, Shan'l, Young'n, B'andra, De'lys, D'Dree

Future names of prescriptions: Lyravin, Monalaine, Nyleen, Merlaine, Monease, Naquel, Ronalene, Nylan, Rolayne, Tyron, Lexine, Lyrin, Mikatin, Artax, Xtrin, Tylene, Qedrin, Tamrin, Denilyn, Kevrin, Nicolin, Xylan, Tolex, Zylan, Daycal, Falycid, Zerin, Davon, Sydal

Wow! What a Babe!: Wavie, Zhalore, LaTanna, Tressa, LaDreama, Amourette

Fluid-related: Thermos, Soda, Logan River, Jordan River, Susquehannah, Canteen

When simple alphabetic characters aren't enough: K-8 (pronounced "Kate," I guess)

Politically incorrect: Sambo, Aryion

Heard chanted in the Salt Lake airport: Ara-Om

Has food connotations: Dianarea, Dicey, Vindalu, Blenda, Strawberry, Sugarlee, Beena, Pork Chop, Sesami, Jar, Karmel, Kresent, TaffiLyn, Chipo

Had breathing problems in the hospital nursery: Azure, Syrullean

You might find in a forest: Wrendie, Jilbear, Timber, Oaks, Pixie, LaFawnduh, Fawn-Dew, Ember, Bird, Magpie, Serenity Fawn, Paradi, L'Aire, Brookelle, Sylvan, Fawna, Lawn, Rain, Gazelle, El Fawn, Aspen, Acacia, Panda, Briar, Rhodendra, Fernnola, Birdene, Hummingbird, Disney, Chinchilla Zest, Haven, Glade

No doubt about it, this kid's in charge: Rexina, Rexine, Queenola, Dominee, Ruger, Messiah Angel, Oden, RexDee, Navy, Jentry, Czar, LeeMaster, Quintessa, Marquessa, Leviathan, Captain.

Smells: Cachet, Reaka, Violeet, Avon, Budla

Faux ethnic: Laddie, Walkasheaqua, Bsjonet, Hishla, Chilnecha, Forthilda, Kaltighanna, Alainka, Chip-wa, Pawnece America, Zem Saxon, O'Ann, WaThene, Sheighlagh, Valliere

Commemorating something or another: Welcome Exile, Confederate American, Southern Justice, Liberty Lulu, Young Elizabeth, Genesis, MistiNoele, Imagine, Thankful Flood, Friends Forsaken, Joyous Noel, Tennyson, Knight Train, Miracles Precious One, Sunday's Hoseana, Disney, Blessing Ream, Stormy Shepherd, Denim Levi, Vernal Independence, Sincere Devotion, Mothers, Elvoid, Noah-Lot, Mormon Miracles, MyLae, Nightrain Lane, Zion Anakin, Jeopardee, Statehood, Denim Levi

Let's hope not: Rube, Sleeza, Nymphus, Golden P., Burns, Hydra, Non, Malis, Talon, Beefea, Patches, Storm, Slayer, Sterile, Slaughter, Jynx, Hyde, Prynne, StormiAnn, Sham, Apathy, DeRail, Dull, Gamble

In a class of their own (In fact, I'm not sure I believe these but we asked for details and a confirmation and got convincing replies, so here they are): NaLa'DeLuhRay, Phakelikaydenicia, Zaragrunudgeyon ("Zarg," for short), Jennyfivetina, Tiarrhea, Nudity, VulvaMae, DaLinda LaDale, Tugdick, Saunsceneyouray, and, yes... Clitoris.

Teletubbies: Laalaa

Guaranteed to get last place on our list (or anyone else's): ZZkora

I can't think of anything clever to write but these must be mentioned: Barbeli, Revo Cram, Feramorz, Glint, LaNondus, Wynante, Camera, Lecoya, AureJudd, NaNon, Bimberly, DavidO, Leumas ("Samuel" backwards), Ralphene, Shimber, T-vive, Synthi, CoJane, Nona-rene, Gaylawn, Txanton, LaZello, Daycal, Sancie D'Wan, RaVoe, Zenus, Gatobon, LaEarl, Trystal, AndiOdette, Serenity-Tabitha-Ann, Alexavier, X Y Zella, Bonquisha, Musser Cenia, Jubeltine, Oryeon, Shlori, Danlonaga, Zedwain, Casualeen, Young'n, Shambertine Crille, Canon, Malique, LeeWitt, Jazzeri, DeRaunz, Teru, Aaro, Divid, Cimemthymia, LaDonnaJosephrania, LaDeeDee, deRalph, MaddLynAlain, Vyquetoriya, Falycid, Rophis, Mick BonScott, Kaysional Tempest, Darianlelo, DeLaVerne, BoChe', Minnet, Kandle, Seena Tawnya, Dwodger, J Thoral, Xanderrick, Abcde, KNikkol, Demeatrice, LLean Shanalyn, Scytha Solena, HiDee

Thu, 02 Jan 2003 21:20:28 GMT

I went down and paid for my classes at FCC, so I guess it's all done and official. Part 1 of my Fat-Ass List of New Year's Resolutions is slightly closer to being complete. Now to work on that smoking thing...

Eh, fuck it, here's a poll for all y'all.

View Poll: S.O.s and L.J.s

I've been re-watching The Maxx lately. God, that series is such genius. I always want to give Sara a hug (not that it would help anything) and Julie is just so frickin' sexy, especially as the Leopard Queen.

Tue, 31 Dec 2002 18:38:33 GMT

funny funny poll results

Tue, 31 Dec 2002 17:27:30 GMT

Okay, geek-type-people, I need some help here. My parents have put me in charge of fixing their computer, in an attempt to avoid the nasty prices of professional puter-fixers.

Here's the sitch:
Their computer is about 3 years old, a Pentium III 733 MHz running Windows 98. A couple of weeks ago, they started having a problem where the computer would spontaneously turn off and restart itself. The problem continued getting worse until it started doing it every time Windows starts up, making their computer basically unusable.

The funny thing is, it doesn't restart when you boot up in safe mode or off a disk. Because of this, I thought it might be a software thing and I reformatted and reinstalled Windows. And it's STILL doing it. Then we thought it might be the power supply, so we switched it out with one that works and it's STILL doing it. The next thing we're gonna try is putting XP on it and see if that helps. Also, I noticed that the restarting thing always happens after you move the mouse or hit a key on the keyboard for the first time. If you just let it sit there, it won't restart, but as soon as you try to do something.... Wham. Uggh.

Does anyone have any idea what the problem here could be??

Mon, 30 Dec 2002 22:23:09 GMT

Hmm, I think I just committed the online equivalent of walking into a room and then having no clue why you did. I clicked the link to go to my userinfo and now I have absolutely no idea what I was going to do there, but it seems like it was important...

Mon, 30 Dec 2002 21:21:16 GMT

Gather 'round, Miss Kat is going to tell a brief yet pointless short story.

Once upon a time there was a little girl named Katie who was 8 years old. She didn't have many friends at school, but she would watch the boys chase the girls and the girls chase the boys, back and forth, all through recess. One day, she noticed a boy who was chasing other little boys, but the other boys weren't playing along. The boy's name, she remembered from the class picture, was Justin. "Hmm," she thought to herself, "that boy has no friends, maybe I should chase him!"

She chased him all around the playground and he helped her build a sandcastle and Katie decided that they were meant for each other. She planned a wedding, bought a cheap candy ring, enlisted all the girls to play along, bridesmaids and maids of honor and flower girls (she even got a little girl named Trinette to play the priest). She wrote all about it in her diary. She wore her prettist pink Sunday dress to school and bit her nails in anticipation for lunch recess, when she would be forever united with this boy.

Justin, however, was not so compliant. He ran off on skinny legs, chased by a band of angry little girls wearing dresses and funny paper hats, and hid in the Boy's Bathroom. After that day, he didn't help her make sandcastles anymore.

It took her years to understand what the problem had been, until she ran into him in high school with his boyfriend. "At least he's the only one I've turned," Katie thought to herself, except at that time she was having people call her Katherine, and then remembered that she hadn't turned him anything. He had been chasing the little boys from the start.

On a cloudy December morning a few years after that, when Katherine had become Kat, she got a phone call from her father, who had caught his name in the newspaper. Justin had died on Christmas Eve, her father said, although they had not yet reported the cause of death. "Yet another puzzle piece fades to black," she thought to herself, "another thread snapped in the space between who I am and why I became that way."

RIP Justin Kissel, 1981-2002

Sat, 28 Dec 2002 00:15:16 GMT

Scanning through the friendsfriends page, I came upon (not literally) someone who was asking their friends to describe your experience of 2002 in 20 words or less.

Here is mine:
Claiming a space as my own and still being uncomfortable. Too many flags. Realizing I suck. Down, up, down. Scared.

Ready?

Go.

Fri, 27 Dec 2002 23:54:16 GMT

The world seems to stop spinning between 3:30 and 5:00pm. People stop posting, and I haven't been able to pin down why. Even my friendsfriends page has nothing new to offer. It's kind of funny to me that I spend more time doing nothing online now than I did when I was job-free, school-free, responsibility-free. More time wearily hitting F5 and looking through journals of people halfway across the world who have nothing in common with me. More time writing fragmented sentences and at the same time throwing internal fits about the poor grammar of others.

Fri, 27 Dec 2002 18:36:29 GMT

If any of you care to, I made a silly little Tori Amos-related poll for you to take.

Thu, 26 Dec 2002 21:51:13 GMT

This is how my New Year festivites have gone the last few years:

New Year's '99 - Spent in a hotel room here in Fresno with levi_adams_live and my friend Joel and his girlfriend and cousin. Drank Bacardi 151, people got sick, Joel's cousin insisted on hitting on me, walked to convenience store to buy candy in the middle of the night.

New Year's '00 - Spent in the middle of downtown San Francisco, drinking wine and smoking pot as cops looked on approvingly. Got stranded around 3am until we were picked up by a miracle van.

New Year's '01 - Spent in a gay 18+ club in Portland watching my boyfriend get eyed by more men than I was. Walked home through the freeze hepped up on ephedra.

New Year's '02 - Spent at a cabin near Huntington Lake underneath 7 feet of snow. Drank champagne around a bonfire, took three quick shots of Tuaca immediately before midnight, stayed up until the next morning.

New Year's '03 - Not sure yet. No resources to leave town, no prospects for particularly fun things to do in town. I'll probably end up at Livingstone's, so anyone else who can't find anything to do should call me and maybe we can make something happen.

Thu, 26 Dec 2002 16:59:38 GMT

To my great relief, Christmas actually went okay. I didn't even need to get drunk and hide in my room singing "I Wish Me A Merry Christmas" over and over again. I spent the day watching the Simpsons and the stand-up routines of Denis Leary and Bill Hicks, smoked a bit, ate the better part of a Hickory-Farms-meat-and-cheese-basket and a bunch of Christmas candy. Also did the family thing briefly, got some really nifty presents which I'm not going to bother listing because nobody cares. One thing I did get that I thought was really odd was a robot cat from my parents (this was my "main present"). It meows and purrs when you pet it and it gets pissed when you pull its tail. Not bad for something furry that I'm not allergic to. It's been years since I've gotten a toy.

I got an email yesterday from someone I really didn't care to hear from again... this was a guy I went to high school with, although he was a few years ahead of me. We never talked then. I think we had one class together when I was a freshman but he never actually acknowledged my existence. Years later, after I graduated, he starts talking to me on ICQ, doing the whole "Hey, I know you! You're so-and-so from such-and-such!" thing, and tells me that he's had a crush on me ALL these years and wants to see me. At the time, I was living in Portland so I had an easy excuse out of it. And I didn't hear from him again until yesterday when he drops me an email to tell me that he'd "heard it around" that I was in town, that he wants to see me.

This was the content of the email (actual details removed for obvious reasons):

Hey Katie,
Its me, just wanted to say whats up and merry Christmas. I hope your's was a good as mine has been so far. I got your email off of ICQ. Hit me up on there sometime my number is xxxxxxxx. Anyway, I hope all is well. I heard from D.M. you were living in Fresno again. You should give me a call sometime. My number is xxx-xxxx, maybe we can hang out, smoke a bowl or something. It's always nice to see an old familiar face. Do you still play piano? I'm needing a keyboard player for a project I'm working on. Call me up if you'd be down. Its not jazz so it wont be too hard. Anyway, merry Christmas to you and may God bless you and yours,

musically yours,
R.H.

Now, I'm keeping in mind that this is how he found out I was in Fresno:

I got a call about a month ago from an old friend from high school. I was happy to hear from him, but I guess he's still friends with the sleazy dude (D.M.) that I lost my virginity to when I was 15, so he told D.M. that I was around. D.M. then told creepy stalker guy, who commenced firing off emails, and probably won't stop until I tell him something. So now sleazy guy and creepy guy both know I'm back, which I'm not really comfortable with.

How the hell do I attract these people? I've never even talked to this guy on the phone, just a couple of times on ICQ, and he acts like he's my long-lost best friend or predestined lover or something. ECCHK!

Okay, I'm done now.

Happy birthday wishies to flatlineloki.

Tue, 24 Dec 2002 18:17:13 GMT

So I've been pondering the possibility of making a job switch. Since my current position is kind of up in the air, I figured I'd check out what the competition's offering. I know that Kaiser is evil and sacrifices babies to the goat god and all that, but I found listing for positions almost identical to mine that pay about 50% more. And it's salary, not hourly. Very tempting. The only problem I can see would be the fact that I need a little bit of flexibility since I'm going to be doing the school thing. It's not like I need a completely custom-designed schedule, I just need to leave by 4:00 on Mondays and Wednesdays instead of 5:00.

Should I sell my soul?

Tue, 24 Dec 2002 17:35:53 GMT

Latest Google searches from my referrer logs:

"I left my hometown" +lyrics +train
"internet comic" sex with naked girls

I hope they found what they were searching for, but somehow I doubt it.

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 22:26:42 GMT

And because I can't possibly forget her... happylovely birthday to the fantabulous faetal, who wears the cutest hats in the world.

survey swiped from gynocide and others

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 17:03:27 GMT

YOU
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards- Enirehtak

[ x ] The story behind your lj user name - None really, except that I used to be really spiritual and it's an easy username to remember.

[ x ] Are you a lesbian - Nope, although I've done my experimenting.

[ x ] Where do you live - Tower District, Fresno, CA.

[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - Almost good enough, but...

DESCRIBE YOUR...

[ x ] Wallet - Black with red Chinese dragons and lots of zippers

[ x ] Hairbrush - Green, bristly, and always clogged with red and black hair.

[ x ] Toothbrush - Green with "Delta Dental" on it... how exciting.

[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - Garnet ring I bought at faire, metal ring that was won as an arcade prize some 3-4 years ago that somehow hasn't fallen off, claddagh, toering.

[ x ] Pillow covers - White and green striped.

[ x ] Blanket - Green comforter, perma-stained.

[ x ] Coffee cup - One with angels and one with gold stars.

[ x ] Sunglasses - I always lose them, so I gave up buying more pairs.

[ x ] Underwear - Right now? Umm... purple and stretchy.

[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Scarlet's Walk

[ x ] Tattoos - None, although I'll prolly get one before I die.

[ x ] Piercings - Just ears... how exciting.

[ x ] What you are wearing now- Blue leopard print sleeveless shirt, black pants.

[ x ] Hair - Currently in low pigtails.

[ x ] Makeup - Not wearing any today, like most days.

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)

[ x ] In my mouth - Sunflower seeds and Werther's (not together, just alternating)

[ x ] In my head - Xmasophobia.

[ x ] Wishing - I felt whole.

[ x ] After this - Go back to transcription.

[ x ] Talking to - Nobody, but semi-eavesdropping on my coworkers in the next room.

[ x ] Eating - Erm, see above?

[ x ] Fetishes - Full lips, long curves.

[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Too many to list here. Most of you, actually.

[ x ] Is next to you - Piles of paperwork, Mountain Dew, dictaphone, bottle of berry lotion.

[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Amadeus, Pi, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, American Beauty, End of Evangelion.

[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month- Nothing, really.

[ x ] The last thing you ate - Reheated pizza last night.

[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of- Not having anyone to turn to.

[ x ] Do you like candles - Yep, although I have a tendency to get wax all over myself.

[ x ] Do you like hot wax - Not really.

[ x ] Do you like incense - Yep, it burns almost 24/7 at my apartment.

[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - It doesn't taste bad, per se, but I don't think I'd go out of my way to taste it.

[ x ] Do you believe in love - I'm not sure these days.

[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - Not in the strictest definition.

[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Nope, that's called infatuation, which can feel just as powerful as love but isn't really based on anything meaningful.

[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - I believe it exists for those that believe in it, but I don't really think so.

[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - I don't think complete forgiveness is ever really possible.

[ x ] Do you believe in God - I believe that powers are at work that are higher than me.

[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Assuming I'm really wealthy when I die, I want to have my own little Egyptian tomb. Nothing extravagant, just something made of stone.

[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - I've never really had an enemy.

[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - Prolly a ferret.

[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up- Well, on Saturday I was up until 7:30 am...

[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - No, I've never even left the country.

[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - I'd eat everything with chopsticks if I could.

[ x ] What's your favorite coin - That really rare expensive one that I'm going to get as change at the Circle K any day now.

[ x ] What are some of your favorite candy - I don't eat much candy these days. Prolly gummi worms though.

[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - Me.

[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - Me.

[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - I want to be a little happier, maybe feel a little bit better about myself.